Friday, October 30, 2009

They're coming to take me AwAy!!

Is this just me? Someone tell if it is, because I’d love to know. But I have this feeling of.. impatients, anxiety, and plain nervousness about writing!

It’s one of those feelings like: You KNOW you have to do something, but plum forgot what it was, and gosh dang, it was important too.

That thing of is, I know what it is I’ve forgotten. I haven’t written. Uh oh, just got an idea.. is this what a withdrawal feels like?

Geez, I only wanted a month off, is that too much to ask for? Well alright, I might be able to understand some of those feelings, but where is this “times running out” feeling coming from? Seriously, it’s making me re-evaluate my life and make sure I’m ready for something major, kinda scary!

Maybe it’s just my A.D.D going into hyper drive. What I wouldn’t give to just sit and be still. Have nothing to worry about. Though even when I have nothing to worry about, I worry about wasting time.

I wonder if you can rent 2 year olds. A handfull of two year olds could probably wear me out. But then I’d just go to sleep, and not get anything done, and then when I woke up I’d be upset because I hadn’t done anything.

Maybe I need to rethink my whole stance on medication. Actaully that wouldn’t work, then I’d just worry about side effects, and wondering if I was going to die. *crossing medication off list forever*

*sigh* Maybe I should just write, see where that gets me *taps pen on teeth*

Nah, I’ll just go kill some Sims characters cleverly.

3 comments:

Jenn H. said...

Hey you can rent my two year old and one year old any time you want!!! Let me know if I can do anything for you!

Eric and Jill said...

That is so true. I thought I'd be content being just a stay at home mom but its hard when the day ends and I still feel stressed because I hadn't done anything.

Lisa Deon said...

Amber, re: does the LUW help with the resume?

No. But I pay my dues, and that's what I'm using it for. I have attended some decent workshops, but I find that 70% of the people in the League write for the LDS market (which I do not) and that's what many of the meetings/presentations are geared to, IMHO.

So, it all depends on 1)what kind of fiction you write and 2) who your market is. It's a great venue for a beginner, but I've found that they don't present anything new for me.

Just my 2 cents.

Lisa